I’m sitting her reading these stories and looking at the man I love downing wine this Xmas ruined all the prep in creating a lovely dinner for him to be drunk by 3 and unable to eat he is a cocaine user and when he is high he changes I am accused of sleeping with all sorts when he is high I am quite lost in the fact I can go put for a couple of hours with my mum he is home with my boys and when I get back at 10pm he has called in and used I ask him why and his response I’m bored – is this normal