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Hi Retroheadz,

Thank you for your reply. I have come to terms I am an addict. Rationing till my next pack, hiding it from people, basing my life around it. I crave the safe warmth it gives me but this is ridiculously out of control. Last week I lied to the doctors surgery and told them i needed my repeat prescription early as I was going on holiday for 3 weeks. I got it and was excited like a child at Christmas.

Yesterday I managed to only take 10 tablets. It got to 11pm and my brain was telling me to take more but I took a sleeping tablet instead.

I was wondering if the sleeping tablets will help with the restless legs when I stop the tablets?

I just know if I tell my husband he will belittle me like a child and I think that will push me further in to block it out. I contacted a drug service and while explaining to them my problem they just kept telling me it will cost £7600 for a 10 week program and I just felt it was more money led than actual help and the reviews confirmed it.

I have been crying on and off since I first admitted my problem yesterday because reality has hit. Reality was already there but admitting it out loud has made it all the more real. Sorry for the long reply, I just seem to be throwing out what ever is in my mind so if it makes no sense I apologise.

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Hi Cassidy1989,

Thank you for your reply. I haven’t seen my doctor in at least a year and a half. I just put a request in and they send it to the chemist. To be honest I’m embarrassed to go and admit it. Even though if any doctor looked at my notes it’s clear to see. All it says it’s cocodamol, zopliclone(sleeping tablets) and sertraline repeatedly. I’m ashamed to even admit it to my husband of 14 years. He always has high expectations of me and I don’t want him to be disappointed. I know the paracetamol can be toxic but at this point I just want to get off these stupid tablets. Even though I know when it gets to around 5 I’ll be taking them again because I have no control. My head says no but the addiction says yes. I think I need a plan. Thank you again for your reply.

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