Hello
I have just signed up to this forum and found your story very similar to mine.
My husband admitted to a long term cocaine addiction at Christmas. He has a very demanding job and he advised his use has spiralled out of control last year. He doesn’t only take cocaine with drink but uses during the day as well. His mood swings, excessive need to sleep all hours I put down to his job but I know now it’s not. As soon as I found out I insisted he see someone and he has also attended Cocaine Anonymous meetings but it’s difficult in lockdown and last Sunday I caught him red handed taking a line of coke in the bathroom. Now I feel he’s just been deceiving me all the time and hasn’t in fact stopped at all. It’s really hard. We have two teenage girls and I know they don’t suspect a thing but it’s not something you can share with friends and family. I feel very alone.