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I am sat here early hours of the morning, as I couldn’t sleep, looking for help and guidance. Reading your stories, makes me feel like I am not alone. My son who is 29, has been clean for about 7 months, he had been doing so well, but the past couple of weeks has relapsed. I found him this morning, sat in his room drinking and using coke. I feel so helpless, as I supported him through recovery and thought we had turned a corner and now blame myself, as I feel like I have become less vigilant and didn’t see the signs. Your stories help because, I know I shouldn’t feel guilty, but it’s hard to watch that self destruction. I miss my son, who is kind and loving, but has changedto being withdrawn and aggressive. Sometimes you have to let them go, which is the hardest part.

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