I really think I need some help. This weekend has been really bad again.
She put away a box of white wine and a bottle of vodka last night. Today she’s put away a box or rose and a bottle of tequila. She drank it out of a coffee cup at first. But then I noticed it. I’m always on drink alert. I can never relax around her. She made some red bush tea earlier but I think it was to disguise drinking tequila right in front of me. She drank it without flinching. Tequila!! Yuck!
We had a bit of a talk tonight but as normal it always comes back to me being the reason she is drinking.
She ruins every weekend, holiday, gathering, etc. I can’t take her anywhere near my work colleague or friends because she gets so rat faced and embarrasses me, she gets loud, obnoxious and common. If I go out for drinks without her, she’ll phone and text constantly until I come home. I hate coming home. I hate being at home with her.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m losing myself. I wake up feeling empty and like I can’t continue in this life anymore.
