[sophie28]

Unfortunately not. I’m still taking the horrible tablets. What’s that? Did you go to the doctors for it?

[sophie28]

Well done for going so long that’s awesome. I can’t go to the doctors I’m worried about what they’ll say because I shouldn’t of been taking them in the first place. I definitely can’t do the cold turkey, I can’t handle the withdrawals

[sophie28]

Write a list of pros and cons and when you need reminding just read that. I get what you mean though, sometimes you can try and talk yourself out of taking anymore in your head but you still end up taking more. That’s what addictions do to you. The amount of tablets I have now is it because I can’t get anymore so I’m making another plan and I will stick to it. I want to feel normal again and sort my life out before it gets even more out of control

[sophie28]

It’s ok. The things I say to you actually help me too. The best way to taper is by dropping 1 tablet per week and that will reduce the withdrawals but obviously that’s not exactly realistic when you’ve already spent loads and can’t afford anymore. I’d need 70 tablets to drop 1 a week and I definitely don’t have that. We will do it because we want our lives back. I just keep reminding myself of all the bad things that could happen like having my daughter taken off me or accidentally overdosing and that’s encouraging me to get it done

[sophie28]

It makes me so angry even thinking about the amount I’ve spent on them, well I haven’t even paid for them yet! I’ve been balance transferring between 2 credit cards for the past 2 years! I haven’t either but I was lucky that my mum give me a few of her tablets so I’ve got more to play with now. I am very determined that by August I will be completely free and I’ll never ever in my life no matter how much pain I’m in put codiene in my body ever again. Even though you might not have done that well today don’t forget how we’ll you’ve done previously and don’t let it get you down. We will have bad days but we need to remember the good days we’ve had as well

[sophie28]

Well apart from actually wanting to do it for many reasons it’s also got to the point that I haven’t got a choice. I can’t afford it and I can’t have the things I want in life as long as I’m taking them. We can both do it!!

[sophie28]

I think I might need to get a few off mum because the amount I have isn’t enough to taper tidy. I’ll just try and manage off 3 today and see how it goes. If I do manage off 3 today tomorrow will be the struggle in work. Good luck to you I really hope you do it just remain positive

[sophie28]

She’s gone tonight thank god lol. We took her on an adventure so she’s knackered. I’ve taken more today because I had a 4am start so I have no choice but to do 3 tomorrow and reduce quicker because I only have 22 left, that’s worrying me. Did you take more after? That’s really good you managed with 3 for the day. I can’t wait for Saturday because I’ll be free of work and I’ll be able to get it done once and for all

[sophie28]

No I only had 4 hours but not because of the withdrawals because of my child not wanting any sleep lol. I just couldn’t drop off until late and I had work early this morning and usually when I have 4 tablets I’m sleepy by bed time. How was you last night? Yes I’m loving the positivity! That’s what we both need. I’ve already had my full amount for today so I’m hoping I won’t need anymore. Its probably going to be an early night tonight just to get rid of the withdrawals

[sophie28]

I just can’t stand the sluggish feeling and having no energy. That’s really good that you went so long in between doses. I’m worried about tomorrow because I’ve got work and that’s when I feel I need them the most. Just hoping for a good nights sleep now

[sophie28]

If only lol it’s my daughters birthday so I’ll have to power through. How have you been today?

[sophie28]

I’m on 3 so far but I was struggling this morning, I feel fine now. That’s very brave of you and I’m sure you’ll smash it. I wish I could do it that quick but I can’t handle the withdrawals. I’ve got a week off next week so I won’t have to do anything and fingers crossed I’ll be completely free after it. If only I could chill on a desert island for a few weeks with no people around me it wouldn’t be so hard to quit lol

[sophie28]

I took 2 Nytol but I still woke up early hours with that horrible I can’t stay still feeling. Today will be a good day because we’re both sick and tired of feeling crap and we want our lives back lol. I’m starting to see it as a fight now and I will win!

[sophie28]

Actually being able to afford to live again lol if everything goes to plan I’ll be completely free by the beginning of July. I’m excited more than worried now. Let’s hope we both sleep well tonight

[sophie28]

And I also get excited thinking about when I get off them how much extra money I’ll have every month lol I’ll actually be able to afford a new car! Let’s hope we both have another good day tomorrow

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