[staceyleigh]

sorry about the comment coming up twice i dont know what happened there xx

[staceyleigh]

yes i agree with everything you have just said in your comment its true he isnt the person i fell in love with and i am beginning to think i dont even kn ow him at all, hes deluded he thinks he can do it on his own and now hes decided that he wants to stop smoking too which is probs going to make things a whole lot worse has hes trying to get rid of 2 addictions at once… hes seeking help to stop smoking but wont seek help to stop the drugs which really only tells me one thing maybe he does want to stop smoking but the drugs i dont think he does because why wont he seek help for that? and thats great news about your son im glad hes actually doing something to help his self. he must be very strong minded and willing to do it, congratulations to your son because it takes a good strong person to actually take that step and seek help 🙂 i wish you and your son all the best for the future and fingers crossed he wont let this vile drug take control 🙂 x

[staceyleigh]

hi 🙂 nope dosent sound harsh at all i totally understand where you are coming from i mean its clear that you have seen what that disgusting stuff can do to someone and your just advising me so thank you so much for your advice 🙂 its weird how much better i feel actually talking to someone who understands where im coming from ive felt like im going insane not being able to talk to anyone about it and ive felt so alone 🙁 its honestly tearing my heart apart because when i first met him he was so loving and besotted in me and that stuff has just totally changed him into someone i feel i dont know :/ he has stopped taking mkat and says hes going to stay clear of it wetha he does or not is a totally different story but i suppose i have to give him a chance to prove his self ? i mean yesterday i was so proud we saw one of his mates that was talking about the drug and my partner turned round and said ‘ im done with it me ‘ made me smile because i never thort id hear that 🙂 & he is trying i mean he woke me up this morning by stroking my nose and then wrapping his arms around me and when i opened my eyes he looked at me and kissed me which thats something he used to do before he got back on the drug, he also made a comment last night saying the worst thing about coming off the drug is that he cant seem to be interested or show any interest in anything else but he believes that will pass, so now i need to decide do i hang on a lil longer and wait it out to see if he continues to get better or do i just give up? xxxxx

[staceyleigh]

hiya thankq for your reply means a lot it really does 🙂 ive felt like im going insane not having anyone to talk to so seeing some one had commented was the highlight of my whole day so thankq for that :)… im trying to be patient with him but he dosent understand why i get so upset and with him snapping at me all the time i react and then he gets worse with me 🙁 he just isnt the same anymore hes confusing me hes changed towards me so much its almost like hes trying to push me away and im hanging on with everything i have and he dont seem to care 🙁 i cried other day to him and he just didnt show any emotion what so ever i feel like im fighting a loosing battle and it hurts me.. hes really distant with me lately he used to always cuddle and kiss me and now even doing that seems like a challenge for him hes not stopped telling me he loves me its just when i ask him for a kiss he gives me one but at the same time acts like he dosent want to 🙁 i seriously am starting to believe that all this is my fault, the other morning we woke up and he said that he wanted his space and wanted me to go and stay with my parents and when i went to go he said that he didnt want me to go and now when hes being funny i ask are you wanting space and he replys will you stop asking me f*****g questions and he gets really angry with me i love him so much but im starting to think he dont feel the same, do i go and give him his space? im just scared if i do hell do something that will make me regret going im so confused 🙂 xxxx

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