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Hello everyone, I’m just about standing! Oh gosh I had covid and then the girls got covid so it’s been pretty horrible here. But I’m on the mend, so back to the hard work! I hope you are all getting on well. Lola – the list idea is great, has it helped? I think I may have a think too..for too long it’s been easy to reach for the pills to cope. I’m so impressed with how well you are getting on. Such an achievement keep it up. Markymark!!! That will be me when I reduce down towards the very end…I know it’s coming too!! For now that was covid. But I will keep you in the loop. My progress has been dreadful. I’m stuck at the station on 12 tablets, I was too poorly on covid to add much more into the mix, so I will start again now im on the mend. I’m hoping to drop down a pill a day for as long as I can tolerate it and then stop. I think the final 8-0 will be horrible. But will let you know. Thank you all for being there. This thread has saved my life. SW
Struggling today. Have kept the course but I’m struggling with covid on top!! Keep going troops. As Wynter said…light at the end of the tunnel. I’m on day 7 of taper, it’s slow and boring. But hoping I can make a reasonable jump soon. Thinking of you all love SW
Arghh listening to your stories….Lola, kitty cat, markymark, black warrior…I would love to be you now. It’s incredible. You have all come out the other end. Feels like a long time away for me. Today I did 10 again, tomorrow 9 and then will see how I get on. It takes a lot to keep my mind off those tablets. At work I am busy and every minute filled – had some withdrawals today…tiredness, yawning, craving…prickles on my arms…but otherwise I’m ok. Still in one piece. I feel like I need to take the next step and get to 8. I had 8 as my first target – it would be the first time I’m within the limits of acceptability! Perhaps Wednesday is that day. I will let you know. Never again will I do this. I’m totally stupid for having let it be my crutch. So for now I say goodnight, keep up the good work. I’m proud of you all. SW
Listen to all your stories, it’s amazing. Your strength and courage is super inspiring. I’m finding the weekends tough, I guess during the week work keeps me busy…but I’m still going. On 10 today. Tomorrow I will try 9 or 10 again. I just want to get to zero and then start the countdown. I hope I can do this, I feel a new loath for those white tablets. Stay safe. Hugs to you all. Keep up the good work ❤️
Hi guys,
argh! I wrote twice and both disappeared!! So I will give a short version! Firstly lovely to hear markymark, wine racket and tramadol are staying strong…keep up the amazing work. Markymark I did wonder that myself. The only thing I can conclude is that I have been taking 300mg of pregabalin for a neuropathic condition for years, and looking at the research – there appears to be a relationship between withdrawal symptoms and pregabalin. So I suspect that might be the case?? I don’t know, but I do know I’m determined to stop both. It is also with saying I do have skin crawling, some anxiety and tiredness..but the worst of it seems to be taken away?? So today is day six and I’m going to keep going slowly down, I agree with you markymark on not going too far too quickly. I’m hoping to be around 9-10 today. Will report back tonight. But I hope so. Love to all SW
Apologies that I’m posting twice a day, trying to stay focused and strong. Today I’m going to try a drop a bit more, I’m feeling a lot better and had some sleep. So I’m going to try for 10. Which sounds silly, but five days ago I was on 28 30mg. Not sure how that is even possible when I think about it. So it’s 10 today, and I will report back in on what happens. But for now, the sun is rising, girls are safe, and I’m trying my best to be a better person. Hope everyone is safe. If you are reading this then keep going, you will have your life back soon. Love SW
Thanks Lola, I did sit there wondering in the middle of the night who else was up trying to get through the night. I hope sleep comes to you soon Lola. I think I got excited reading all your posts and started wanting to just join in and be there in the same moment. Then I realise I’m still at 12 – so depressing. But it’s better than 28 which was five days ago. I can function, and go to work and love the children on this amount, so perhaps stabilise out on 12 for two weeks and then drop to 8, 6, 4 and CT. I’m coming, I’m chasing the start line. I promise, I’m following you all. By mid October I will be ready to go CT and jump for the last bit. I hope I can do it. Be amazing. So to all of you, please keep going. I love to read your stories, it inspires me and helps a lot. Stay safe, H
Keep going Lola, kitty cat, markymark…keep going. Lola you are such an inspiration, and I know this is exhausting – but you are achieving so much, hour by hour day by day. You are almost there. Keeping running in the right direction. The cravings will stop, you can beat this ❤️
Im up in the middle of the night. Day 4 of reducing from 28-12. Think I found my limits to being able to function. So I will probably focus on holding the ship steady at 12 a day for a few days. Started to feel pretty horrendous to be honest. I was driving to work with cold and hot, needles across my skin, and the voice, just take a few more…but I haven’t. For 20 years that voice has never left me, I suspect it will be a life long commitment to staying off this poison and not falling back into dark ways<span style=”-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);”>. I am lonely, I’m down. I wish I could just have the opportunity to live a normal life, and enjoy the smaller things. Not sure why I thought it was an acceptable way to deal with bereavement and loss…then stress. It’s almost that I learnt nothing in life about being truly resilient. So this is my post, I’m down, fed up, lost, tired, guilty, ashamed….but if my mum was still alive she would tell me to add these words too: trying to recover, finding a new way, perseverance, honest and determined. I would say something has clicked in me to bring this train to a stop. So this is my fight, and I need to keep going. I have a feeling there are going to be some truly low days ahead. Hope you all are fast asleep and peaceful. Stay strong, you can do this. I believe in you. </span>
<p style=”text-align: right;”>Good morning guys, it’s that time when I reach out to you all and say hello. Lola day 5 is just amazing, in fact it’s day 6 today. I’m very jealous. I think you are a month ahead of me. . Never be tempted back that process has been so hard and you are doing so well. I’m so impressed. Kitty cat how are you doing? Well it’s day three dropping to 10 today and I may need to hold it there for a few days, to be honest it’s not been too difficult. I do wonder if that’s the progablin low doses that I take but who knows. I think I will start to feel things today. Dropping from 28 -10 in three days may be the limit…may need to hold it there for a while. If I didn’t have a big job and children I would just go cold turkey until I was done. But for me it’s a slow snail road! Every day this stuff is in my body I don’t feel like myself – and how much of that stuff I have taken is shameful. I would like me children to get to know the real me – so I’m working on that. For now it’s day three from to ten let’s try it out, hugs for surviving a hot day – keep going ….drink little and often Lola xx</p>
Just had a realisation that I think I can drop a little more. I’m going to try to get to 10 a day tomorrow. I’m really going to try tomorrow. I will take same dose in the morning so I can work and in the evening take less when I’m sleeping. This is my plan. I think I can do this. I’m trying ❤️
Ps Lola I’m following your model…was end anybody crazy enough to be on the same levels as I was? Hoping to hear a success story!!! Pps kitty Kat.,.thank you. I loved your post. HH
Dear Lola, you keep going. I need you too! It tells me this can be done. Thank you for dropping in today Lola and kittycat. So I’m day two down to 12 from 28. I have kept to my quest, very very tired, had to pull over on the way back from work. I think you are right, get to 4 and take the jump. Im pretty sure I couldn’t do that from 28!! Even getting down to 12 feels dodgy. My next goal is 8. To get back within the recommended guidelines. What do you all think? I can believe that some of you tell nobody, it’s the shame and embarrassment. I definitely feel that. But then I come on here either end of the day and I know I have a pocket of friends to pull me through. We can and will do this. Keep going ❤️
wow this is incredible, Lola, mark, kitty cat…this is amazing. You are all doing so well!! Thank you so much for having me. I don’t feel as alone now I know you really know what I’m going through. I think if I had carried on I would have lost the house or ended up in prison – because everything was focused on affording the drug. Now I’m getting down to gp levels and they are prescribing once a week – which is pretty embrassing in itself. You are all doing SO well. I need to be strong like you. I’m a ceo of a large charity so I can’t not function and a single mummy. So I guess I need to taper and function. I’m on day two of dropping from 28 to 12. Yesterday was ok, I did feel it, I was yawning and exhausted but I could function. Today I have the children back at school and a big meeting at work. Thank you all, and keep going. You are like trail blazers to me. I’m so impressed and thank you for welcoming me. Love Summerwinds
So here I am, I think I should say hi. My life is a complete mess. I feel anxious and stressed. My parents died, then my brother died, then my husband and I separated, then we went through court, then had to move out with girls, find a new home, start a new job and been stressed financially too. All this time I have been wrongly taking codeine to get me through. At my height it was 840 mg a day (28 tablets), I have now dropped to 12 tablets and the race is on to get off them. I have booked in with a council group but the waiting list is long. So it’s just me on my own for now. I thought I would do a big jump to 12 a day and hold it there for a week, and then get down to 8 a day and then a sensible timescale off. I feel scared to go cold turkey as I need to go to work and look after the girls. I’m absolutely shattered from the drop – I’m in bed by 9pm!reading the thread there are a few of us that are on the list with huge amounts of the drug in our bodies. I think I have a battle to stay on track. I have one friend who knows I’m here. He is amazing and never judges me. I’m totally ashamed. I’m a complete idiot, not sure why I thought it was a sustainable way to live your life. So for now it’s day to day. This is my journey to beat this drug. I do feel alone, but I’m determined to change my life for my girls.