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I’m so sorry I’m stuck on your thread

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I have been through a lot. Both my parents and brother have died, my partner left and I have been through court to fight to keep my girls. I won. They are safe. I have a home and a lot of debt. I used codeine to keep me going. I have been taking codeine for over two decades. Not sure whether to taper or jump straight off a cliff with it. Saw Gp and she said taper to 8 a day and hold it there for a while. I’m on 4 times that so it’s going to be horrendous. Please support me and keep me going. I’m scared. I’m anxious. I feel ashamed. Completely ashamed.

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Apologies,

Im so sorry to be saying hello in these circumstances. I’m here because I’m ashamed of who I have become. For the last 20 years I have taken codeine following a long term problem with my bladder. Today I can take anywhere from 20-30 tablets a day. I have made awful choices, had huge financial implications all because I was using codeine to help me at difficult times like bereavement and stress. Decided it time to stop so going to taper as much as I can and then find a drug rehabilitation group and try and beat this. Im scared really scared.

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Hello I think my mind will go bonkers

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Hello I’m here, day 1 very scared.

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<span style=”text-align: center;”>Im so sorry to be saying hello in these circumstances. I’m here because I’m ashamed of who I have become. For the last 20 years I have taken codeine following a long term problem with my bladder. Today I can take anywhere from 20-30 tablets a day. I have made awful choices, had huge financial implications all because I was using codeine to help me at difficult times like bereavement and stress. Decided it time to stop so going to taper as much as I can and then find a drug rehabilitation group and try and beat this. Im scared really scared.</span>

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Hello all,

Im so sorry to be saying hello in these circumstances. I’m here because I’m ashamed of who I have become. For the last 20 years I have taken codeine following a long term problem with my bladder. Today I can take anywhere from 20-30 tablets a day. I have made awful choices, had huge financial implications all because I was using codeine to help me at difficult times like bereavement and stress. Decided it time to stop so going to taper as much as I can and then find a drug rehabilitation group and try and beat this. Im scared really scared.

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That was a really thoughtful reply. Thank you. You are right about keeping busy! I guess it can help keep you away from mischief. It sounds like you are really making progress. I’m really impressed. It is so easy to mask feelings with drugs. Amazing how they creep in. I think you are right about tapering until off. Once i am finished…I think I would need to have my leg chopped off before I took pain medicines again! I have never tried recreational drugs. I always thought I would probably like them too much so stayed away! And looking at my current situation – that is probably a fair assessment. I think it’s brilliant that you are going to stop taking coke. Takes a lot of courage and conviction. Do you ever wonder what kind of person you might be without it? I do. I wonder if I would make better decisions – if I would laugh more or be at peace.

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