[talkn4u]

I have prayed and prayed over this. I truly feel that god will forgive me for not staying in my marriage. It’s only been 4 years and I have been there when he lost his job and I provided. I have been there when he was verbally and emotionally and at times physical abusive and I stayed by his side. I have now been there with the bad accident that left his forehead detached from his scalp and a piece of glass that was inches away from his main artery in his neck and him repeatedly saying I’m done drinking to only come home and start again. No job at this time since he’s still under dr care for his hand injury that has resulted in two surgeries and I’m still here. I might not now be emotionally here within my heart but I’m still here. He has destroyed my heart my daughters heart and my mom whom we all live together. I don’t deserve this. By no means I’m imperfect but I’m a good woman who just wanted someone to love me not destroy me. I know this is the only way out. And I continue to pray for this to be the right thing. I am in counseling now as well. I’ve had to go on more meds to help with my nerves and anxiety. I have a very important job that requires my full attention at all times and it’s truly been hard to stay on top and not let my personal life affect it. I pray for him and I hope he will get his life together when he gets to go home to Morocco but I truly doubt it.

[talkn4u]

So sorry to hear that he passed. I am trying to hang on until he is cleared from dr. He was served with a dwi warrant and now has to go to court for that. I am not going with him. He wants to go visit his home place in Morocco and I’m praying he gets to do that soon. I’m planning on once he’s gone to file for divorce. I waited until I was 44 yrs old to have my first marriage and it’s been horrible since.

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