Thanks so much to you both. It’s just so hard. I’m so tired all the time. I feel like a single parent who’s always shouldering all the responsibilities while he gets to act like a teenager. He’s 42. I think it’s pathetic. I’m not kind about the addiction. I say horrible things all the time but I feel entitled to do so when he’s behaving this way. It’s ok for a while and then it starts again. I can’t be bothered. I don’t want to spend my life doing this. Life is too short to waste dealing with drama that isn’t even your own. It’s just the financial crap that keeps me here and the kids. I don’t want to hurt them but this is probably hurting more than if I left! It’s boring. I just feel like I’m constantly repeating the same drivel I’m bored of it all! I wish he would meet someone else and set me free x