[tottig]

Definitely not alone! I know that overwhelming lost feeling of being just stuck on where what and how all too well.

For me and only me has it took all of these past 6 years with my spouse to truly understand that I am powerless has he is the only one who can make a change.

It’s truly tuff but in all honestly all that I have learned repeatedly was I can only do what’s best for me.

There is no right or wrong to it..day by day and reaching out on here like I have is a huge and very brave step!! Shows you seek the support which is a given for us.

I wish you peace. And reach out anytime ❤️

[tottig]

Ty Adfam

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Ty for your thoughtful words and it’s so encouraging for me to know you made it!!

Yes family knows, friends know..all very much there for when I’m ready to take action.

As far as my plan I’m still very confident. Things have taken a turn for the worse but In a strange way for the better. I have become cold and pretty mean to him and explained why (not that it makes it ok and I hate who I am at this time due to this) but it’s really a relief to know this is it. I’m done. Truly done. I’m being stern. I’m being honest and ready to leave or for him to leave at any second and it would truly be a blessing.

I recall the says where I thought I’d die if I lost him

He still is so self absorbed. Still doesn’t understand why I am so hateful towards him etc etc

And I truly don’t care to keep explaining. I am now putting energy into me remaining strong and mentally happy as everyone deserves that.

The pity train literally has left this building. I no longer can take his mental illness issues on nor his drug addiction and truly I feel that’s his only problem with me wanting it to be over..cuz he won’t have me to pick up his mess of all that comes with this crazy crippling nightmare.

I’m so glad I found this! It’s a relief during this pandemic ❤️

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I’m dealing with the same stuff. I’m exhausted..by the time I catch up on the norm after his every 3 week binge it’s right back to the same old thing. I gave up on it all but am stuck dealing until I can move out. If only he would respect my peace i would be able to get one step ahead of leaving even faster. If I fall asleep or separate myself from his using it becomes dangerous for me. I hate this disease in more ways then I could say. Glad I found this chat

[tottig]

This is hitting home for me in such similar ways. I’m a house wife with an addict husband with D.O.C, cocaine..it’s effecting me, my daughter, our home our life even our animals! He too has been getting worse over a course of a few years..his story is about identical to yours..didn’t start til 18 etc.

You are recognizing what is decaying ur relationship and that your getting worse..so u understand it..(mine too)..and yes if u don’t stop, that drug will kill you and mine has said the same about him ending his life as well..what is tough for you to trust is..there’s hope there’s help and ur wife will be There once you make that choice to get the help you do need and follow through..the unknown isn’t peaceful at times but how would you know if u don’t do what you are recognizing the healthy choice you should take cuz you do deserve a fair shot at it..plz do it for urself..it’s worth it!

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