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Hey James, I don’t know where you stay but where I am we have a mens mental health charity where all men are welcome and they have guys who are struggling with addiction, grief, and lots of other things and a lot of the guys that go have said it helps , is there anything like that where you are ? X

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Aww I hope your OK James, just keep going as hard as it is , feelings can be the worst thing in the world , I can’t imagine what your going through but I’m sure your parents would want you to keep doing what your doing, do you have a partner or a close friend you can talk to ? , sending you a hug you can get through this x

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Hi I wasn’t suggesting stopping your kids from seeing there father at all , I was just giving an example of how my girls dad letting her down and disappointing her has made her put up an emotional barrier . Everyone’s situation is different and we all have different views and outcomes , sorry you feel i was in some way doing the get rid of him thing , I wasn’t, if his addiction isn’t causing distress or drama to your kids lives and he is being a gd dad then there’s no reason why he shouldn’t have a relationship with the kids x

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Reading what hell you ladies have been through is making me realise its not gonna get better and why am I even trying ,I have no attachments to him my kids are my own we have none together we down own a house together so why am I even going through this misery alongside him, your both very strong women , I’m getting to that cut off point because more I talk to others I’m realising there’s nothing wrong with me it’s nothing I’m doing wrong or not doing and also not everyone gets clean and tbh I can’t see mine getting clean for a long time ,he doesn’t hide it from me anymore it’s out in the open and he doesn’t seem ashamed just annoyed after he spend all his money and runs up more debts , we pull out the stops don’t we shower them with everything to make them feel loved when we get nothing in return , I’m not sleeping just now I’m uo till 5am in morning today thinking of it all , its his day off today I already know his plans even tho he hasn’t said x it’s a shame he ruined Holland for you hope one day you might return and have happier memories

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God sounds like you had an awful time , I’m already feeling like one tbh , won’t be seeing him this weekend I’m still not well he says he is going to stay at home and away from everyone to stay off it but we all know that’s not gonna happen , I’m just gonna try get better then enjoy weekend with my girls and not stress about what he is getting upto ,I’ve been getting upset about me loving him and him not loving Me and remembering how he was before he changed but its pointless getting upset now, just acceptance now ,hope you all good x

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Dyou not wonder if they have any feelings anymore, he is like a robot ,numb it’s as if nothing matters to him anymore , he told me last night he doesn’t care about anyone , I’ve been ill past couple of days he has called asked if I’m OK told me too rest but never once offered to come by he even laughed and said if he was a good boyfriend he would offer to come take care of me but nah , kids weren’t even here so he could have instead he got 7g and sat sniffing all day , it’s his birthday soon and I’ve got lot planned but starting to think ehy should I, he can’t even guve me a cuddle or drop by with some soup lol he always says you shouldn’t be nice to get niceness back lol can’t win really

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The amount of money I’ve given him to help him out makes me feel stupid but he very good at the poor method and I’ve fell for it everytime unfortunately, and the more I have done it ,don’t even get a thanks anymore and definitely don’t get it back, luckily we don’t live together, I feel terrible cos I feel like I’m starting to hate him considering I loved him to bits but now I just feel numb kinda ,the nastiness kills me ,calling me fat and ugly rejecting me making sick noises as if I repulse him , I keep typing out a text saying how he has destroyed me and how ita over but i can’t seem to send it , talking to him about it he just mocks me x

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He has a medical condition which means he can’t have sex

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That’s the same with mine , there’s no niceness unless he is high but he gets in such a state he can’t really talk , just long for the way things were even tho i know it never be like that again, we went away for the weekend he didn’t take anything but like you said there it was like roommates , just end up feeling like there’s something wrong with me , it’s only natural to be close to person you love tho , hope your OK

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Lol kids are resilient aren’t they, I’m so sorry I wasn’t meaning anything bad or cheeky xx

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Hope that doesn’t come across as cheeky definitely isn’t meant that way, Hope you and kids have a lovely weekend, I’m not seeing other half this weekend so I’m having a relaxed one with my kids ,I say relaxed haha see how I am by Sunday night lol xx

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My oldest daughters dad left when she was few months old she contacted him few years ago found out he is a heroin addict ,he built her hoped up a few times then let her down since then she keeps herself guarded, doesn’t show much emotions and acts like she has no empathy, she gets lots of love from me and my mum and dad but I think being hurt and let down by him has made her put a wall up against anyone else so just be careful , kids find out themselves who is reliable and who isn’t but unfortunately it can cause emotional damage at a young age too xx

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Its because she is into coke like him and he doesn’t have to hide it or feel ashame but wait till they both run up debts ,take it out on each other, if he can leave you and your kids for her and coke then he has done you all a massive favour although it won’t feel like it xx

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Yeah she would have known, I was with him today she called asking for a lift he said no ,then he said to me you would have got all angry anyway because your jealous of her lol I said nothing to be jealous of she a user , he went into a mood and said I’m fed up with you already so instead of backing down I told him no you going in a mood because uou want to go get her so ill go home and let you go running, he never answered just drove to place we were going for lunch and was back to way he was before she called , he seems to be talking about doing more together, going away again, but we will wait and see because I won’t see him now till end next week and he gets paid so she is gonna be lurking and he is gonna go on it again but instead of sitting up all night worrying I’m gonna leave him to it , I am starting a new venture next week I’m excited and I’m not going to mess it up , I love him but I have struggled and fought constant battles for years before I met him and I’m determined it’s time to start enjoying life and make a better one for me and my family xx hope you ladies are OK and things are going as gd as can be

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Glad you enjoyed yourself, we deserve to live life too as much as it doesn’t feel like it, well he is on it has been since 1pm today , admitted while we were away he was tempted to try crack last week, I’m just letting him do him because nothing I say or do will change it ,he actually called saying he sniffing I said okay he said your meant to be supportive lol wtf I said I’ve been there for you still am but I can’t and won’t tell you what to do so he called hia dealer and ordered more , I’m doing my usual and worrying but I’m trying to push it aside and not let it ruin my peace of mind tonight x

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