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Hey how are you ? , he isn’t an overly romantic person but he knows when he does this it gets to me it’s as if he enjoys keeping me on my toes , I said maybe I should just start being as cold as you and his reply was no cos your one of most kindest loving person ever and have heart of gold , but then he acts way he does x

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We don’t have kids together, which is a big positive , the heath issues he has are life threatening and he could die tomorrow, next week, month or year if his body shuts down completely which just makes me worry even more, I do have my own kids tho and I have worked very hard bringing them up and recently past 2 years to be in a job I love and the hard work is slowly paying off I know I need to put myself first to be able to keep going and enjoy it , also an unhappy mummy isn’t what I want for my kids, thank you for the chat as I have no one else I can talk to .

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My mental health is really bad I worry qhen he is on it because he will sit and sniff continuously till he can’t even function talk or walk and he has really bad medical conditions so I sit and worry all night, the days after he is ill and gives me dogs abuse but plays it out as banter, I’m watching him spiral, I love him but I know it’s not going to get better I just can’t seem to break away

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I know i should let him go because im never going to come first he is too far gone and the coke will always come first at first I blamed her but deep down I know its him , I’m meant to be staying with him this weekend but tomorrow will come he will be ill then Saturday he will be moody and pissed off and do everything for an argument so he doesn’t have to come and get me , I don’t know why I can’t seem to just cut him off and get on with my own life

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That’s a link to buy pills yeah that’s not gonna help anyone on here

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Before I met him I was confident happy and totally secure now I’m total opposite thank you for your reply

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Mine isn’t like that but we don’t live together if we did I think it would probably be a total disaster, hope your ok , I’m just letting him do what he wants to do but I won’t be picking up the pieces again if he runs a bill up which he has started already binged for 3 nights already then I’m not gonna settle it for him it’s the uncertainty I hate , is he gonna be nice or is he gonna be acting like an arse , if your partner is at the stage of getting arrested maybe try have a break from him ,easier said than done though

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When he is taking coke he nice and lovey ,he goes really quiet when he takes and just sits in a corner continually sniffing till he can’t move ,it’s the day after he just becomes so cheeky just like you said he insults my appearance ,he pulls me right to the ground calls me horrible names but all in the name of banter seemingly , its affecting me badly now I’m awake till early hours can’t sleep ,I hate looking in the mirror, I’m on edge and feel emotional I wish I could split with him but I keep thinking what if . I have started hating myself for staying with him, that’s why I joined here to see if what he does is way addicts behave and help me walk away .

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