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Dear Ivy

Thank you for your reply I was quite uplifted when I read this today.

Over the Christmas period things had got progressively worse .

I picked my son up from a friends mid afternoon on New Year’s Eve the same day he was diagnosed with ADHD ( he has not come to terms with this ) and he was again stoned , I wanted to speak with my sons friends Mum as to address this and perhaps apologies but I felt very ashamed and took him home .

My husband and I are in the process of separating sadly but he is still living with us until things get sorted with the house , his brother is also his identical twin, they are very close and I have pleaded with him to help talk to his brother about the dangers but, and I understand, my other son feels the weight of responsibility and says “ I’m not his dad !”

Last night my husband picked my son up from “ town” I didn’t want him to go, I said NO but, he left the house regardless and said he would walk ( it’s a good 1 hour walk ) so, I caved in and picked him up and drove him in as he said he wanted to meet friends before returning to school after the Xmas break.

After we had called him and repeatedly messaged him 3 hours later asking where he is and that my husband would pick him up my other son finally made contact with him and was able to collect him . When he came home I was horrified…. He was covered in mud, wet trousers ( we had no rain) and was staggering appeared he had been drinking too. My husband didn’t recognise any of the people he was with and said they looked allot older . Which concerns me greatly . The bag he had on him which I took away was full of broken glass . It really feels like a horror story . I called 101 to raise my concerns and they are powerless unless I have names of the people he was with or, if he becomes aggressive . He was verbally abusive to me and snatched my phone from me as I was calling O2 to try and cut off his phone ( for his own safety I believe)

I feel absolutely powerless and for the first time in my life I do not know what to do which frightens me.

I spent some time reading about county lines and my mind was full throttle running away .

I am also conscious of calling the police again or social services as he is already saying I have ruined his life with his diagnosis which to mention , his school and implemented the assessment due to his lack of focus and temper.

Every day I pray things will be better but they are not . I can’t physically lock him up, he’s 14 ( 15 in two weeks ) and 5’9 and I do actually fear him as he can be very volatile.

When reading this myself I can’t believe this is me writing this about my son. I love him of course but I fear this are getting worse .

Thank you for your encouraging words Ivy and sorry for the long story

xx

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