Everything you have said I relate too. I guess 9 years has finally taken its toll on the both of us. I describe it how you describe it to chaos. That’s all it is. Have you asked him about quitting? The thing is what they don’t see is that it affects us. I mentally can’t cope anymore. I have 2 young boys with him to so it makes it all harder but my eldest is almost 5 so old enough to understand what we are disagreeing about and I don’t want him being brought up around it at all. I feel tied just like you do. Love the person to bits because he’s decent and loyal apart from the lies about taking cocaine and I want to support him but it’s dragging me down now and I can’t cope. I just feel like it’s always going to be a repeat. It’s nice being able to talk to someone I’ve only just come across this forum. I’ve felt alone for 9 years so hopefully talking to people about it will help.
