[ynot1962]

Correct!

[ynot1962]

Oops I meant it seems very boring now as the euphoria you feel when you’ve discovered this drug is amazing…. but false!!!

[ynot1962]

Just read your post my friend! Apologies as I’ve just come on here tonight and you’ve been chatting away to me!

Thank you for your interest and support

I see what you’re saying and I’m exactly the same …. it’s reassuring that other people are feeling the same problems as yourself

It’s been good tonight to talk about this life changing problem to others that are experiencing the same feelings and life conditions

Thank you

Now I have to go back to work tomorrow and try and save the job I’ve only just started due to my time off …. not good

[ynot1962]

Yes I am eternally grateful as I could have ended up in a much worse place and not been here now?

If I did as much gym and weights as I did coke I’d look like Arnold Swarzenegger now ha

Yes time to rethink my life strategy and try and be the man I was when I had the kids growing up!

It all seems very now though….

[ynot1962]

Here’s a subject that I’ve always fought with myself about …. my friend who helped me off the streets was like a good samiritan however he also gave me the kiss of death by introducing me to his friend “the cocaine?”

Don’t know about anyone else but I would never introduce anyone to coke! What happens if they end up like me ot even dead? My responsibility?

Those are my rules … never introduce an inquisitive person to cocaine

[ynot1962]

Wise words! Very true I think I forget sometimes that there is an amount of self will I have to put in… there is no magic answer!

And is it true that addicts are like cancer patients (without being offensive to cancer patients… they are all illnesses? Right?) in that we live our lives in remission so as to say? It will always be there just waiting for you to bring your life down… or taken away?

[ynot1962]

Thanks Danman

I think it’s easier said than done not seeing or socialising with dealers and people that do it? I mean I went to Majorca with my friend a few years ago and within ten minutes of going in a bar he said bet you can’t get any gear around here?

Well I ended up chatting to a girl who was a dealer…. she said “follow me downstairs to the toilets and I need a wee”?” Well I got the wrong idea and it ended up very embarrassing with her boyfriend who was gonna knock me out? Strange that she sat there dealing to me having a wee?

Anyway I’m digressing ….. what I’m saying is that you can find someone anywhere these days to pick up!

I think I’m cursed with that face that people just think “oh bet he has some stuff on him?” And I always make friends with the wronguns? Know what I mean?

Thank you for that comment though it does make perfect sense

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