Hi
Sorry your having a sad day, tomorrow will be better!
I have been packing today as I move next weekend just me and the dog into a nice cottage so hoping that helps, no memories.
Been a crap today for me aswell today.
It’s just all the lies and manipulation isn’t it? As I said I don’t have kids so god knows how you are coping!
Well done for doing the flat pack yourself!!! Another thing you don’t need him for and each day you will realise more and more than hat you can do no matter how small.
My mind just does not switch off. He had been gone awhile now but even tonight I am looking at his old phone bills and bank statements and putting them against txt and photos trying to work out if he was doing it on certain days etc, WHY it’s not doing me any good just making me nuts????
For him to have no contact this long I also think he is with someone else and like you it will be someone younger who takes drugs, no other “normal woman” would want him!
I know what you mean, everything and I mean everything he has achieved or learnt has been because of me, even down to food and wine and I can imagine him with someone telling them the vintage of a wine etc and it pisses me off!!
Below is one of the last txt he sent me, the next day he rang and called me a c**t and wanted a divorce it’s so weird! James is my brother and Isabella my niece just to explain the txt
Your right!
Your an amazing woman!
You just out grown me!
As much as I say you hurt me I loved so much more about you!
Your the best thing that ever happened to me!
As confidence I say you took from me you give me more other ways!
I know 100% I would not have achieved whatI have without you!
I am wrong for al the things I have been saying I let you down.
Sorry for ruining everything and for everything I have put you through!
You were my everything and I let you down and give up!
I thank you so much for looking after me! Everything you hate I become. Sorry for your letting you down !
Your the best and will never forget my Elaine
Sorry for everything baby x
Run as far away from me as I will drag you down !
I have said things about James but only out of anger! You always said I reminded you of James but you were wrong!!! He is 10 of me! Please tell James I am sorry for letting him down! We were never to close but I genuinely thought a lot of him. Some times wish we spoke more.
Last thing!
Tell Izzy to remember Shannon and not this thing I turned into! She’s amazing! Light of our life
You need anything and I mean anything you ring
Xxxx