You are not alone, I have 2 children and been in a relationship for 15 years with an alcoholic. He has had a few years now and then of being sober but the same pattern returns. Your not crazy or mental, they make you feel that way because it’s a way to justify their own behaviour. Plan things with friends/family and your children so you have things to look forward too. Do some mediation maybe to relax you in the evenings. I hope it gets better or you find some peace. I hope the same for myself too x
