So we both went on the walk today and spoke about it. I said that if he didn’t do coke then our life would be completely different. i basically said that over the 9 days that he didn’t do it we got on really well and he agreed that it was much nicer for all of us. But i gave him an ultimatum, its either me and our son or drugs. Well tonight has proved what has won for me.
(this might sound a bit confusing so stay with me on this one!)
When we got home i said that we can still get a pizza and watch a film, to try and go back to normal even though i was still angry at him, negativity will do no good. Then one of his mates called and asked if he could get his dealer to get a gram in for him, as he does “good stuff” and his wife doesn’t let him do it as she is a social worker and his mate has a bad heart. I was shouting in the background as his mate knows our situation and knows that my ex is an addict and that if he was a real mate he would help him. But never the less he still went and the drugs dropped off anyway, his dealer then done a deal for him 2 grams for £70 therefore my ex gains from this deal as his mate gave him £50 for it and he get a gram for less than half price (i hate the fact that i know all of this-i’ve been around it too long now). i will be meeting his mate tomorrow as he has some car parts for my boss that my ex is fitting to my boss’s car tomorrow as my ex is a mechanic by trade and his mate is still a mechanic and can get parts at cost price for him. I have no idea what im going to say to his mate tomorrow, i really want to rip into him but at the same time there is that old saying “no point arguing with stupid” i just feel that i will get nowhere with it. What do you think i should do?
So My ex done one line in front of me which broke my heart. i hate it. but then i said to him i have no idea why you are even doing it and what is the point and i have no idea what he is getting out of it. He is only causing more pain. He ended up giving me the gram and his mates gram too. So i’m going to flush them. F$*K them!! Stupid A*seholes! it just makes me so angry.
I’m so glad that your other half hasn’t done it in a week, that really good news. How often would he use? My Ex used to do it everyday at one point when it was at its absolute worse. Oh god the pacing would drive me absolutely nuts! but i at least he is now taking it seriously.
My parents are missing my little boy like mad. i have been walking their dogs for them as they aren’t allowed out and they have been waving to him from their front door while we stand in the driveway. They can’t wait to have him over again and play with him. That will last all of 10 minutes as my little one is a bit of a handful.
My mum hasn’t been tested but we are pretty sure she has had it, she coming over the worst of it now. Yes it is very pretty, its a little village and there is a bridge i like to walk over that reminds me of my late uncle. he meant a lot to me but he passed away when i was 10. It always makes me happy thinking that i’m doing the same walk as he used to do everyday, it hasn’t changed much.
His hair is what does it for me! lol I love it! After life is a must, so good.
My ex is now in the bedroom trying to find it……..