Hey Jorge. Thanks for sharing mate, that cant have been easy.
That is alot you have going on there, and it sounds like you know this is a problem, it also sounds like you dont know how to stay stopped
There is good and bad news here I reckon.
The bad news is that addiction left to run riot will only get worse and worse. It will strip you of everything worthwhile – family, job, home, finances, friends
The good news is that if you are serious about stopping and have genuinely had enough, with willingness and hard work there is a wealth of stuff to throw at this. You can beat addiction a day a day at a time and live a happy healthy productive life.
It’s really up to you now mate