[lisaloner]

He says that he wants to…his kids no longer speak to him because of his addiction. I think they thought that would scare him straight. He has just gotten worse. We moved 3 hours away from the neighborhood he grew up in. I wanted to move for my own reasons and for myself I am glad that I did. I know that some of his old using buddies he no longer talks to and I do check his phone every so often. I do not like doing that. Both of us do not lock our phones. I really have nothing to hide. I am too old for playing games. I want so badly to believe him but, I know he still does use every so often. I also know that if he wants it he will find it. He admits that he ruined his whole life but, yet it goes on.