[lisaloner]

I have been married for 2 years. My husband has been a drug addict all his life. I knew when i met him. Over the course of 2 years I have had all different emotions and some are anger. I have said things to him out of anger that I regret. He knows that his actions will hurt me but, the drugs are more important.

Let me back up, when I met him he was supposedly clean…he claims that a family situation led him back to using and it is not me. He does not blame me for being an addict. He does not like it that I call him on his disrespectful behavior towards me and our marriage.

He has taken to saying that I am so negative and if I am so unhappy to get a divorce. He says that this is not what he wants but, he wants me to stop yelling and crying. When he gets paid, he goes on a binge for a day or two or three and I feel used. I have to be responsible while being married to a teenager. In response, when I get paid I really want to take off and stay with my son or a girlfriend to see if he gets it. I think he may have an excuse to act out even more.

Does anyone have advice or opinion?

[danman83]

Hope your ok

What is he addicted to?

[lisaloner]

Crack

[danman83]

Ye I’d get out now. Slippery slope that

[lisaloner]

I know….I wish I had no feelings….it was really hard for me to tell you that. crying again..thanks for your honesty

[danman83]

I’m on coke and I know it’s the same. But when it’s crack. It just goes a lot worse. Robbing, ect ect

[danman83]

Don’t worry about telling me. This is what this site is about and it does help. No point in hiding. I told my mum everything. And really upset her. Does he want to quit

[danman83]

He needs to get rid of everyone to do with crack now. Delete all his nums

[lisaloner]

He says that he wants to…his kids no longer speak to him because of his addiction. I think they thought that would scare him straight. He has just gotten worse. We moved 3 hours away from the neighborhood he grew up in. I wanted to move for my own reasons and for myself I am glad that I did. I know that some of his old using buddies he no longer talks to and I do check his phone every so often. I do not like doing that. Both of us do not lock our phones. I really have nothing to hide. I am too old for playing games. I want so badly to believe him but, I know he still does use every so often. I also know that if he wants it he will find it. He admits that he ruined his whole life but, yet it goes on.

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