Hi Theresa,
I’m glad you are getting support by speaking to people on this forum. What you are going through with your son’s addiction is very hard. If you feel you would like more help for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that supports people going through what you are. We have trained and experienced people you could talk with who may help you to find a way ahead and will let you know what other support is out there for you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.