Hello everyone. I’ve spent a good while reading through this post in full and it has been a difficult thing to read if I’m honest.
I’m an addict that has been using drugs in one form or another for the last 21 years. Although I’m not using any class A drugs at the moment I don’t class myself as being in recovery because I am smoking cannabis still but I’m finding a couple of joints in the evening when I’ve finished work is keeping me away from the crack and heroin and although the cannabis use isn’t an ideal solution it’s the lesser of two evils. When I read the way that you have been affected by the behaviour of the addicts in your lives it made me realise how much pain and suffering I have caused the people who have been supporting me over all these years. So much so that I just rung my mum to let her know how much she means to me.
I know it’s difficult for a non addict to understand what being an addict is like and how it makes the way we function and think all about the drugs but what I didn’t realise was just how much I didn’t understand the feelings of the family and friends that have had to deal with my addiction and everything that goes with it.
I’m sorry if this post doesn’t make much sense to anyone but I felt compelled to write something just to acknowledge the sacrifices you have all made in a financial, emotional and personal way. I’d like to wish everyone all the very best and I hope your situations improve and you and the addicts in your lives get the help you deserve. I know people in active addiction can be the most vile and disgusting form of a human being there is but I also know that is the drugs and not the person. I hope you all get your loved ones back to the people you know they can be. I don’t know if it would help at all but if I can answer any questions or anything like that I am happy to.
Thanks for allowing me to get this off my chest x