Hi everyone I’m sorry for the delay in replying I’ve just got home from work. Jem I’m so sorry to hear that your mum is poorly I hope she makes a quick recovery and I am sure the extra pressure on you and the rest of the family is huge so please try to take care of yourself in all of this.
In response to Jenny and bump when you asked what my rock bottom was the honest truth is I had that many times when I thought I was as low as I could go but I’m not sure if this is true for every addict but I used to just adapt to the situations I found myself in and carry on. I did a residential rehab and was clean for nearly 9 months but relapsed just before Xmas. What I found to be really helpful from my mum especially was just been able to speak to her about the intensity of the cravings for drugs and I don’t think she was able to relate to the feelings personally but I think it helped her to see how passionate ( I couldn’t think of another word) and animated I used to get when trying to explain how i was feeling.
It’s must be so difficult to watch a loved one destroying themselves but until the addicts have had enough of it all and are willing to be open and honest with everyone who is a part of their lives and cut out the people who are associated with that world the only thing I think you can do to help further is try and take good care of yourself and the rest of the family so that when they are ready your ready too. I knew I was hurting my mum and causing her to be ill and I used to use more drugs in the hope of blanking that out but I think it’s so important that for us addicts to get an idea of what your going through and I would recommend putting it in writing to them. I found that I didn’t want to listen if I was being told but it was different when it was in writing.
Did you get to the truth about the possible overdose bump?