Hi jtekg4,
I know you feel guilty, but dont you dare! You did everything in your power to help that man, all while looking after 2 children! 32 years is a long time but you will pick yourself up.
In a few years all your friends and family will be wondering, how you did it and how did you cope so well? but at the end of the day, you just do. You get things done and you cope.
You’ve made it this far…don’t underestimate yourself.