Hi Nanny ger
Thank you for your thoughtful post. Im glad you received a card from your son, that’s a glimmer of hope there. He still loves you. They all do, it’s just that, when they have addiction they love that more.
Please don’t give up that hope , seek help and support for yourself. The Icarus trust offers advice and support here too.
Thinking and praying for you and your son.
Lx