I’ve told family members and select friends. I do not divulge info, just info like if he’s tested positive, how devastating the news is, and how much of a roller coaster ride life is currently. I MUST and CAN stay positive for my own sanity. I MUST emerge myself in normal activities and some form of positivity amoungst all of the usual and repetative devastation and negativity. I won’t lend money, I wont have him living with me but I chat with him daily and congratulate him when his life has some form of normality. I can worry myself to death and hit an extremely low low period last October when it emerged he tested positive for heroin and crack. I think their are stages to ‘loss’ – shock, denial, sadness, anger, acceptance. I have gone through each and every stage – sadness hit me rock bottom. I think I am now in acceptance – there is nothing I can do – I hate saying this but it is what it is. I still cry but its not at such depth nowdays. I cannot listen to some songs without getting really really sad – knocking on heavens door makes me sob as its about heroin and death. I offer no advice as we are all individuals, I only offer condolence with my experience of this fucking horrible drugs. But I am off to do some gardening, cooking today and the spring flowers are up. take care and look after yourself and your mental self. It is REALLY important to get through each of these stages. You got this…x
