Morning ladies, I have been in bed for 2 days now reading this thread! I could have written most of them myself over the last 20 years – I have never reached out in all this time and feel I have now given everything I have! I’m exhausted, heart broken and ashamed. My son has sucked the joy out of every happy occasion and made every sad occasion even more unbearable! My stomach flips every time I see a message from him or his wife. I live in fear of her giving up on him ( even knowing it would be better for her and the children) He has given me the most beautiful grandchildren – another torture to endure. I should be at work but just don’t have the strength. I love my first born more than anything else as I remember the wonderful son and daddy he can be! I’m heartbroken xx Thank you for listening xx
