Hi Safeinbed,
I have only just read your story, I’m so sorry. I had never thought in terms of 20 years of this, and how draining that must be. I hope that you’re feeling a bit better. I know that feeling of not being able to face work and sometimes just not being able to make really basic decisions. I try not to think about the future too much, that would raise too many questions and I’m lucky that there are no kids involved or partner. I think about the people on this forum everyday and I wish that we didn’t have this going on in our lives.
I started going to work meetings again this week and met with a friend who knows what’s going on, it helped a lot. This has been so much worse because of lockdown. I feel like my son’s problems became the only thing I thought about. I really hope you have a friend who will be there for you and that your son sees the light, if only for his children.
I hope that everyone has a peaceful weekend and that things are improving xxx