Hi 68862 I’m really sorry, its so stressful for you to go through this. Its easy to say that you just say ‘no’ but so hard when you do it. I’ve caved in loads of times, and I think they lose perspective on how much £600 actually is because their lives are all about spending large amounts on drink or drugs. They don’t choose to live that way its just where they’ve ended up, but everyone suffers, as their mum’s I don’t think there can be much pain greater than this.
Just keep talking on the thread, it is the thing that has got me through recently. Sometimes I am in work meetings and an email pops up, I just find it comforting to read about others out there. I feel sad for all of us, but know that this thread has amazing people on it and I feel lucky to have found them.
Tonight was a good one for me, I sat in the sunshine with my son and we ate fish and chips, he was completely his old self, and I just wanted to savour the moment, of him feeling comfortable and talking and joking like we used to. When you are going through the bad times its hard to remember or to keep believing that the person they were before all of this is still there somewhere. I wish I could hang on to that thought.
I hope you can switch your phone off tonight and watch something good on tv, and not think about it for a few hours. I’m thinking of you xxx