It is so nice to see them like their old selves! You do just try to drink it all in and enjoy that moment. I’ve had those with my son too, although it makes it bittersweet when their gone again.
My son recently went to the hospital to detox, which I was relieved to hear. It’s not safe for him to detox alone. He has to go there to get the medicine that helps him detox. He didn’t tell me he was going, just that he was there for four days and that he came home and cried. At the hospital, a social worker usually comes in and gives them resources which he never uses. I texted him a few days later and he just said that he’s exhausted and depressed. I just told him to hang in there, that he could do it. I have to keep my distance to protect myself. This last relapse of his was very difficult. He did and said a lot of awful things to me. I realize that it was the alcohol talking, but I’m human and those things affect a person. They’re hard to forget. When he gets sober, he says he wishes everyone could just forget the past and move forward. The guilt for him then is terrible. And then the guilt, anxiety and stress start to take a toll on him and then you start to see the cracks. I always pray that this time will be the one for good, but I’ve learned to not start to hope too much. It must be on mind though because the last few nights I’ve had dreams that he’s his old self again. I’ve had to accept that really he’ll probably never be that old self again completely, and I’ll have to learn a new normal.
I hope you’re all having a good day today! Best wishes to all! ❤️