Mrs.B I feel like I cld have just written that in particular this morning when I was considering writing a letter to my son.
He has been clean for 3 mnths but still treats me like dirt.
I have nothing left and my nerves are shattered by him.
We let him stay a couple of nights ago and first thing in the morning he kicked off.
Despite that he has asked again if he can stay tonight..calling me first thing..I was I the middle of prepping for a interview today and because I didnt instantly say yes he kicked off again..and he wonders why I hesitate!
He maybe clean tan of drink and drugs but his personality and treatment to us as a family remains disgusting.
He thinks I’m a bad mum for not wanting to see him but the reality is he is only using us for free food and convenience of seeing his friends locally.
He never chats to us or soends quality time and his very presence in the house makes me I’ll.
I’m struggling and worn out with my long covid but of course he doesnt see that.
Of course I’m pleased he has come 3 mnths off substances but I’m still sad and distressed at his treatment to me in particular.
The years of stress and worry have taken its toll and I’m sorry but i cant cope with him anymore.
I’m constantly told love the addict and hate the addiction but what i see is even without the addiction he just is a very selfish and unpleasant person.
Sorry guys but it destroys me that all the worry and everything g we have gone through which has really pulled me down and made me a shadow of who i once was and he doesnt even appreciate it. Worse still treats us so badly.