Most of my adult life i have had issues with feeding like I will never find anyone decent.
Just like you I never gave myself credit for being a hard working good Mum until the point of giving up when I decided not to ever let anyone hurt me again and the change in my outlook just seemed to attract a decent guy who really appreciates all my good qualities.
I really hope the same happens for you.
I will look forward to hearing when your luck changes
Take lots of care