Hi Jem, i can totally relate to what you said. When my son was clean I felt guilty that he was doing well. But I think you are constantly looking over your shoulder waiting for the next tragedy to unfold!
It’s good to share positive news too as it gives us all hope.
Enjoy your bike ride and pub meal, take pleasure in the little things.
Have a good weekend all.
Sending hugs ❤️
Lx