My heart is hurting for all of you! It’s just so unfair. You’re supposed to raise your kids which is hard enough at times, and then have the reward of them living a decent life. Not this nightmare.
Jem it’s tough with the job. My job has a strong sales aspect to it, and I’m supposed to present a together and upbeat image. It used to be doable, but has been harder these last few years to fake it. To fake it is tiring too.
I get that hiding under the covers thing, just trying to find some kind of escape.
This I know, none of us deserves this burden in life or to be treated poorly. Unfortunately, my counselor had told me that this is their addicted brain. Sadly, this brain dysfunction continues for months even after they’re sober. I’m sure it’s hell for the addict, but I still think about those addicts who make the tough decision, both mentally and physically to stop and that means it can be done and I tell my son that. He likes to play that he’s the victim, he was born this way. But then based on that, aren’t all of their brains predisposed to addiction and yet many people stop.
Lindyloo, I’m sorry you’re starting to see the signs again – it’s gut wrenching.
My sister just told me about a good friend of hers who has a brother in his 50’s who’s an alcoholic. This friend of my sister’s no longer knows where his brother is and assumes he’s on the streets. This friend is very wealthy, so it’s not the money that could save him. No amount of money could if his brother won’t seek help. There are 9 kids in their family and eventually they all cut him off.
Together, we can hold each other up and give each other the strength to carry on and do what’s right for our lives.