Hi Nannyger,
What you’ve been through is heartbreaking, I don’t know how you’ve kept yourself going. I am probably lucky that my son doesn’t have any children, that’s a whole new level of worry. Saying goodbye to your son must have been very hard, I’m sure you must feel that loss terribly even though for the sake of your own sanity you had no choice.
You’re so right that there is a comfort in not being alone in this. I wish there was more help out there for them and treatment.