Susan, I was really sorry to read about your daughter and her family. This must be so difficult for you, especially with children involved and it all going on so close to home. When I first found out that my son was doing heroin I spoke to a counsellor at Drugfam and they told me not to live close to my son, I thought that was very harsh but understand it now. My son lives with me at the moment, although he’s still using he has knocked it right back, but I know that this could change, its a very uneasy peace, of sorts. One of the things that has helped me is visiting the Opiate Recovery thread on Reddit. Reading the day-to-day struggles of people trying to get free of it, helped me to have more empathy and patience with what users go through. It feels like a miserable existence waiting for them to find the strength to beat it. I think having your own full life and strong friendships probably helps but I’ve no idea how you build that for yourself when inside everything feels so bleak and you feel like its destroying you. I hope that you get some comfort from this forum, its a very special place. I’m not sure how it works, but knowing that others understand what you are going through and have similar struggles really helps. When one of us has good news, I think that makes us all more optimistic about what is possible.
I hope things get better for you x