I sometimes think if something happened to my son in some ways it would be a release but I would always question if I did enough. I know I can’t do any more than I’m doing. I do sometimes wonder if it’s my fault he is like this. Did it start when his dad and I split. Is it because his dad is an idiot and wants nothing to do with his children. No one will ever know. There’s no point trying to beat ourselves up. The bottom line is they are ill. They can’t help it. Our anger should be directed to the scummy dealers
