Kate, I think of you and your family daily. I spoke to a recently bereaved friend and he said that after the funeral he felt there was closure.
Such a hard and difficult time for you all. I think the bereavement support groups that Jem suggested will be good for you when you feel ready.
I remember around Christmas 2020 there was a post by Ty85 who , like you lost her son. She set up a petition to government for tougher sentencing for dealers.
I wish there was something I could say or do to help you Kate, but I do pray daily for us all here.
Always here for you my friend ❤
Lx