Thank you for replying. He is so sly in telling me he is not using. Any time I have brought it up he has gotten very defensive and been very quick to say no and make me feel crazy for asking. But I already know he had been, why would it have stopped now that he’s not at home?
There are no children involved. But I am completely grieving the loss of my husband. He calls and tries to act like everything is normal.. always asking are you okay? Like obviously I’m not. Still says he’s going to pay all his share of bills etc which he has so far (1 month).
Im just having such a hard time moving forward without the answers I desire. I feel so left in the dark like how could someone end a marriage with “I just don’t see it happening” when a few months ago I couldn’t even dream of this.
I wake up every day having to realize this is reality. I am going to my doctor today as my stress and anxiety and crying has been out of control. I have lost 20 pounds in a couple of months. He hasn’t commented at all when it’s quite noticeable.
I think he is lying about where he is staying when he says it’s between a couple friends couches. I think he’s with the women I found messages with. If I could just know it would help me move forward.
He seems worried about me but still so selfish, hasn’t taken ANY accountability for his actions or apologized ONCE.
I just go in circles of is this drugs, another woman, or has he just changed. Probably all.
Thanks to anyone who has any advice. Much love.