Kate – I really feel for you, it must be so hard just getting out of bed in the morning and trying to come to terms with what’s happened, every day.
It is an illness and I suppose we all have to face the fact that not everyone gets better. I read something by an addiction ‘expert’ and they said that our children won’t recover for their parents, but they may do it for a partner or child, if not for themselves. Neither you or us are going to be the thing that makes the difference, we can only try and make things a bit easier and point them towards people who can help. It’s going to take time to start to heal and move forward and you’ll miss him everyday, but please don’t feel guilty, and try and remember him as he was before addiction took over.