I think on some level, his girlfriend doesn’t want to know that there is something serious going on with your son.
For me, it’s not so much that I would ever commit suicide, it’s just that so many times, I just haven’t wanted to be around any more. I just wanted the pain to stop. I still get that feeling, like I did the other day when I posted. I just get tired of the sadness of it all and I wish that part of it would end and I would not have to carry around a private sorrow all the time. I’m feeling better and stronger today. I just have my moments and that’s why I’m so happy I have this forum.
You must know that it is NOT your fault. He blames you because that’s what the addicted brain does. Bump is right, that’s not your son talking. It has taken me a couple of years now to tune him out when he talks like that while intoxicated, and know that it is not me personally. My son has told me himself when sober, to not listen to him when he’s like that. He did it just today with a rude text because he is not sober right now, and I just told him I love him and stopped texting him.
It’s not easy being a single mom with these addicts. There are a few of us here. My son and daughters lost their dad too when they were small, and he was an alcoholic too. I’m sure this has played a part in my son’s addiction.
But, Georgie, you did the best you could under terrible circumstances and there are plenty of kids who lost their parents who don’t become addicts.
One of the things that we are all working on, is focusing more on ourselves. It’s not easy- having an addict consumes every corner of your life it seems. But, I’m sure, like me, you have a lot of people who love you and care about your well- being and want you around.
Hugs to you…..❤