Thanks for this Februarymarie – I think you are right, it’s the feeling of just not wanting to be here but not suicidal. It’s exhausting getting through the day feeling sorrow and depression.
As for his girlfriend – she must be burying her head in the sand because it’s just easier than confronting him. She wants me to deal with the tough stuff because she’s not strong enough and doesnt really care about me. I’ve thought about her a lot lately and I think she is very jealous of our relationship because we’ve been very close all of his life. When he’s not here he texts me constantly and I think this riles her, so maybe she is glad this situation is affecting our relationship – because she is hoping that eventually he will come to her.
I wish she understood it would be so much better if we worked as a team to support him.