Up and down to be honest, sometimes I can pretend he is still just down the road and then I remember and it’s gutwrenching. I read all the posts and remember this was how our lives were, I read back over messages where I am constantly nagging him and getting no where. My life is quiet now, no texts asking for something. I miss him so much, I hated seeing him suffer though and he was suffering, those people would have never left him alone. I question if I could have done things differently, I still don’t know the answer to that. I know I loved him and he loved me. That’s all I do know
