Hi everyone
I have not been on for a while but as usual after catching up on messages I am now in tears, sending hope, love and prayers to you all ♥️
My son is now 90 days clean, 27 years old and the first time he has been without any form of drugs or alcohol since the age of 16. He is still very heavy company, as you know he is in a state run open rehab facility and so far has stuck to the rules and is determined to make this work. He has embraced the 12 steps which I never ever thought he would as he’d always sneered at the mere suggestion of it.
I stood by him through all of those years of drug abuse and he abused our home, was rude, had my home raided by police, dealers banging on the door and threatening him and our family, he lied, stole, cheated, took credit out in my name, borrowed copious amounts of money, sold our belongings even my work laptop , threatened suicide on multiple occasions, It is soul destroying and something that will always stay with you, no matter what.
Today I am incredibly proud as he revived his 90 days clean key ring and I pray with all my might that he keeps soaring upwards.
But there is still an element of doubt, a big fat gremlin sitting on my shoulder who keeps telling me to be wary it takes 30 seconds for him to use again and spiral out of control in his addiction. If this happens I think I can’t have him back, I’m warn out and can’t watch the self destruct button being repeatedly pressed.
So I send you all my love, hope and prayers ♥️
Addiction in any shape or form is a horrendous disease, it transforms our loved ones into ugly people. More needs to be done to help this ever growing population of users. Instead of locking them up with no help, invest in therapies to give them a chance … I could go on and on and on………..
Sorry ????♥️