February …yes exactly why on earth do we put up with it.
Everyone suffers because of them.
I guess I find it heard to remind myself it’s a disease…when the abuse the leaching of money and all the chaos is ruining our own lives.
I was doing my ironing today I even do that with this scowl that doesnt leave my face as I’m so stressed ..I honestly think there is no.muscle memory for smiling!!
Cant remember when I properly smiled.
I need to start doing a gratitude list like they do at AA so I can start to feel more positive.
I do find it so hard though as i mourn the person i was pre having covid and a addict son..where has that fun woman gone!
Sorry for .moaning i guess I’m just struggling with it all I’ve been fortunate to have a 7 mnth break and now ive been pushed into that dark hole again.