Hi Mark
Sorry to hear that life is tough for you at the moment. You’re doing so well not giving in to temptation – be proud of yourself.
I messed up a few weeks ago. I impulsively gave in to intense cravings and took 60mg of codeine – screwing up around 4 months of abstinence… at that moment it was great and I even thought I could “treat myself” from time to time… but oh the head f**k it’s caused since, I’m sure even this small amount (or perhaps just the guilt?) has negatively impacted my recovery… Obviously I didn’t experience any acute withdrawals but the insomnia, anxiety and low mood came back with a vengeance. Talk about short term pleasure causing longer term pain… I think the bottom line is I’ve got to address why I feel the need to take stuff to change the way I feel but I am clueless as to where to start. It’s something I’ve done for my entire adult life ffs!
Yes this thread/forum seems to be be all over the place at the moment – it’s so frustrating when posts disappear. Does anyone know of any other online support forums we can use?
Apologies for the rant! I hope everyone is doing okay and Mark hang on in there – remember everything that you’ve achieved over the past year.
Take care and stay strong 💕
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