Hi Lozzy. I’m so sorry to hear things are bad again. I have been in a similar position, walking away but then going back. Nothing changes in the long term!
Currently, it is over and I am trying to stick to no contact (easier for me as we aren’t married or own a house together, thankfully). I have met someone new and although very early days it has been shocking to me how different things can be when you’re not with someone who is an addict and abusive. It’s going to be really hard to begin with but you can do this. You deserve to be happy and not waste your life on him. If you want someone to talk to for mutual support then I’m here. I’m still having wobbles but starting to feel like I’m stronger. When I think about going back I ask myself why?! What am I missing? What am I going back to? Endless shit! Sometimes I feel lonely, guilty, bored, maybe I even miss the drama cycle in a weird way…but having peace and control over my own life is starting to feel way more comfortable and like I want to make that my priority. You CAN do this xxx
